"Then Sings My Soul" Saturday

Well, my first TSMS post is the same as the person who started TSMS... "I Will Praise You in This Storm" by Casting Crowns...

Praise You in This Storm

words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms, performed by Casting Crowns

I was sure by now, God, that You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away,
Stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
And it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
And raised me up again
My strength is almost gone how can I carry on
If I can't find You
And as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
The God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus


I don't take the song literally as a storm involving rain, lighting, thunder, etc.. My storm is my disease and all that goes along with it. As I'm laying on the table with machines all around me, in so much pain I have to remind myself how to breathe, this is the song I sing. For so long I asked, "what Lord, what did I do to diserve this? I thought I was a good kid! Why?" and I've even had moments where I've denied His existence (though I knew He had to be there, but denied that He was there for me, that He is loving and merciful). But I NEED to believe something, and I'm miserable without God, because somewhere down there I believe He is loving, and merciful, and forgiving, and I WANT to believe it...I NEED to believe it! So...though my heart is torn... I will praise Him in this storm

The parts I really relate to are:

But once again, I say amen
And it's still raining
So often I used to (and still occasionally) think to myself, "Okay God, I've prayed, I've gone to church, I've been born again more times than I can count, so when are You going to kick in?"


For You are who You are
No matter where I am
(or in my case, no matter what faith problems I'm having!)

And every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
(a real reasurance!)

how can I carry on
If I can't find You?

(So many times I think to myself, "Am I really doing everything wrong like everyone is saying? And if so, what do you expect from me? I'm trying! Are you listening??? Can you hear me now? Can you hear me now?"



I think I may change the rules a bit and do this tomorrow, too...I have a lot of songs in mind!